today was weird. really good and really bad all at once. rollercoaster-y. making it a pregnant day i'd say. and so i'm venting. because really, if you can't vent on your blog, where can you? but the fact that i am even writing about this should tell you how crazy pregnant brained i am, because no sane, non pregnant woman would document this. but whatever.
the bad part?
i have a cold. a BAD one. and when you're being sabotaged by your upper respiratory system AND you're pregnant, it makes you sleep worse than you already are, your snot makes you nauseated-er than you already are (don't get me started), and you are even sleepier and lazier than you already are. not a good situation. so there was a lot of laying around feeling crappy all morning.
the other bad part, danny had a closing (we really like closings in danny's business) late in the evening in south slc. and didn't get home until 9. given my sick/pregnantness and a late night alone with max, i was TIRED. VERY TIRED. and OVERWHELMED. then, max jumped on me approximately 97 times while we watched the rocketeer, so finally we had to turn the rocketeer off. then he did it again, so we had to have a time out. then i get him out of time out and get ready for bed, when he starts kicking me. after asking him approximately 32 times to stop, i lost it. i smacked him right on his chubby little thigh, hard. he stopped, and he BAWLED. and i felt HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE. and sad. and called danny. then danny came home. and i BAWLED.
i bawled about being sick. i bawled about being pregnant. i bawled about smacking max's leg (because really, don't you feel just like a complete genius when you smack your kid as discipline for kicking you??! now that's logic). i bawled because i felt overwhelmed and hate our busy schedule sometimes and danny has a golf tournament on my birthday and how is it possible that there are MORE dishes to do and i am out of strawberries and i miss my mom and i wish we had family close by that would swoop in and take care of wild little boys while his mom is sick + pregnant.
you get the idea. it was one of those cries.
and when you cry and cry and cry like that and can't stop because you're hormonal, and you have a super bad cold, you can't breathe so good. sigh.
do you have days like that?
but then, there were some really really good parts.
i did have a photo shoot, but in case you didn't notice, it poured buckets. so we had to postpone. but i really needed to get out of the house (too much snot and lounging going on at home), so me and max ventured out into the rain. this was really good news for max, who got to wear his rain boots and rain coat. which he LOVES. it was also good news because we were headed to the gateway barnes and noble, who just so happened to have his new obsession THE ROCKETEER in stock.
the even better part is that he fell asleep on the way down, so i got to spend like an HOUR in forever 21 with a sleeping kid. and i bought a new shirt and new sunglasses.
the best part is that max woke up SO happy, and just got happier and happier as our outing went on. he was THRILLED when we located his rocketeer movie, and was so sweet and thankful to the man who helped us. then he saw the coffee shop and asked for "hot toa-toa!!!! hot toa-toa mommy!!!!" and because the weather was bad, and he was so cute, we got him his very own. he was very proud.
then we left the gateway for my new favorite spot THAI LOTUS for some takeout. and while we were waiting we got a cupcake at LES MADELINES. and the whole time, he was so sweet and happy and adorable and polite to all the shop owners i wanted to just burst. i seriously couldn't handle how freaking perfect he was, and how much i loved him, and how proud that he was my little dude.
and he even cooperated for a couple iphone shots. see? see how ADORABLE?
this is definitely the part of the day i want to remember.
that, and this one other really good part. that's the part where danny got home, got him ready for bed, did the dishes, hugged me and listened to me for a long time (we talked for a while, and then we got to the part about my mom living far away and being out of strawberries, and he knew it was a pregnant day. so we just hugged because there is no point in talking), and then danny led us in a game of MAKE A FORT AND RUN AROND THE HOUSE SHOOTING STUFF WITH OUR FINGER GUNS. it's max's favorite game pretty much. tonight we shot Calico- the bad guy in the movie BOLT, and "Nachees" (um, Nazi's. you heard me.) the bad guys in the ROCKETEER. but that's a whole different story. then danny read max's favorite books while i snuggled max and listened to danny's awesome story telling voices. and we had prayers, and felt really thankful for the good and the bad and everything in between.
and then we had snuggle on the couch time while max yelled out questions and excuses from his bed.
yea. that was all awesome.